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[Aug. 13th, 2009|10:37 pm] |
I have to restore my Ipod to factory settings....again! gaaaaah!
piece of crap! it's lucky I belong to this site that I can get tunes from. All I want is an Ipod that works? is that sooo much to ask?! |
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[Apr. 18th, 2009|02:38 am] |
I'm getting a cold again. ffs!
Oh and Fall Out 3 is awesome and I should really have been in bed hours ago haha!
nite! |
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| Merry Christmas |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|01:02 am] |
Hellooo,
Well I'm in Saskatoon for my yearly visit with the fam. It's been a lot of fun so far, I got to meet Erics fiance Anita who is really nice. Eric is so loved up it's very sweet. Their hoping to try for kids next year...I can't wait to be an aunty!
Life is pretty good right now, my moods are quite stable which is always a good thing. and I'm off to England in...21 days! yay!
Well this is just a quicky but I'll write more very soon
Merry Christmas everyone love ya! |
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[Nov. 30th, 2008|09:53 pm] |
Well 6 weeks since I've written. I guess it's about time I updated!
Well 45 days until my trip, I'm so excited, a bit nervous about the travel, I was telling Lindsey today I hate customs, they always seem to make me feel nervous and guilty for no reason, which just makes them more suspicious..least I'm not going to the States, custom people I've met there are just not nice!
I'm still on Prozac, I guess it's working, I'm starting to feel like I'm done with my latest bout of depression. It feels like it's taken a very long time. It's scary when I'm going through it, can't think of a better word..scary.. a verse in the song Dark Road by Annie Lennox explains how I feel alot of the time with it:
" can't find the joy within my soul
It's just sadness takin' hold
I wanna come in from the cold
And make myself renewed again
It takes strength to live this way
The same old madness every day
I wanna kick these blues away
I wanna learn to live again..."
I never thought about it before but I think it does take strength. To get up, work, function when inside your mind is raging like a storm, your happiness shrouded in darkness, the temptaton to just sleep, hold the pain at bay for even a while so strong. But you keep going. I figured today I've had depression on and off for 20 years! I still remember when I was 11 the first time I just had this huge feeling of sadness and I couldn't understand why, now 31 and I still don't fully understand it. But I've come a long way through the many ups and downs.
Michelle and I are looking into getting a house, it'll be pricey for sure! but any change from where we are now is gonna be. and we do need a change, the 3 of us in this little apartment. We deserve a better place and it would be so nice for Saraleigh to have a yard to play in, I always took it for granted having a garden when I was little, she should have that too.
Well I better get to bed, this is the latest I've been up for a while, I must be getting old! |
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| French and Saunders do Harry Potter:) |
[Oct. 16th, 2008|11:18 am] |
I think this is so funny:) especially now I'm on a Harry Potter kick! and always love French and Saunders. Some of the characters might not make sense to folks across the pond, like Basil Brush who was a puppet on a kids show in the 80s as Dobby, or the guy who plays Draco is from the soap Eastenders. and the comedian Ronnie Corbit as Hagrid, I love how they have the woman who played Rita Skeeter as Hermione. good stuff:)
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[Oct. 16th, 2008|10:57 am] |
I'm watching Maurey Povich right now. Yes I know the first question is "why?!" well I just came across it!
It's about abusive husbands and boyfriends, their women are saying how the guys spit on them, time how long their in the bathroom, decide what they'll eat, among other fun things.
So then a self help guru comes out yelling at the women "stand tall! you're all queens! love yourselves!" and then to the men "treat your women better, you wouldn't treat your Mom like this!"
Then the guys went and talked to some other abused women and all seemed to realise that they had to change their ways, and promised they'd be perfect gentlemen from now on! and to top it off the women had a makeover which was ment to make them suddenly confident.
They came out with nice hair and clothes and the guys were like "hey beautiful!, I'll never hurt you again" I never knew domestic abuse could be solved so quickly and easily!
I'm reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Got about 200 pages left, it's so good! Harry seems to be more like himself after being so crabby and angsty in book 5. I just cant put it down, I should take a day off and just read! I mean I still have to get through book 7!
Meds seem to be working well, I'm definatly a lot better than a cpl weeks ago, It's like a fog lifting when I get through it, I'm also reading this book called "you can be happy, no matter what" and finding the advice in it very useful.
90 days till I go to England! so excited:) just gotta keep making sure I save spending money! |
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[Oct. 9th, 2008|09:35 pm] |
Mr Bean at the Library. He could well be one of our patrons! lol |
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[Oct. 9th, 2008|09:19 pm] |
Cookie Monster in the Library:) |
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[Oct. 1st, 2008|06:38 pm] |
I cried at work today *sigh* went to the Doctor this morning, I've been coming off Effexor for the past couple of weeks and as the side effects have worn off my depression has come back.
It's such a strange feeling. I know when I'm feeling more that just abit blue, I get really tired, and I obsess over thoughts, and I just feel well..sad. I get days or times when I feel like I can get through it by myself and I'm always telling myself that it's the depression, not really me. But it doesn't seem to help, another part of my mind says "but it might stay bad this time" I try to hide it from others I guess, come across like I'm fine, but those who know me seem to always be able to tell.
At the Docs today I promised myself I wouldn't cry, I'd just tell her what was wrong and that's it. but of course as soon as she asked me how I was, my throat burned and tears started streaming, I just looked at my shoes and stammered "I'm not doing too good". She asked me if she needed to be worried about me, told her no, I'd never try and kill myself.
I asked her why I keep getting this, She said some people just have to stay on meds like diabetics, that I don't have enough seretonin (sp) and that alot of people are just depressed because of that and no other reason. It was good to hear that, I'm very lucky to have her as my Doctor. It's such a change to have one that isn't just trying to pop me pills as soon as I'm there, or not listening to what I'm trying to say. and the counceller I've seen has been good too, although I find talking with a good friend can be just as benefical (god, my spelling sucks today!)
I'm back on Fluoxitine, hoping this will be the last time I have to switch meds *crosses fingers*
I got back to work and thought "right I'm good, not gonna get teary" then as soon as I went back into kids ref and Nicole said "how did it go?" I burst into tears, she gave me a big hug and we sat and talked, while I got myself together, I kept thinking I was okay, then I'd start getting teary again. I said it felt like a tap I just couldn't turn off. I looked like crap by the end of the day, my eyes were all puffy and I just felt exhausted.
When I got home Michelle said "what's wrong?" I tried saying nothig but she just hugged me and said "gonna kick your ass, nothing!" heh, so of course I chocked up..again!. Told her I was so tired of this and Saraleigh goes "you could have a nap if you're tired Simone" bless her.
So I'm off to bed soon, it's 9.22pm now, I know somethings up when I want to sleep early, usually I'm ready to read till I'm glancing at the clock thinking "holy cow, it's midnight already!" hopefully, that'll be me again soon, I know this isn't me right now, this is an illness that I just have to keep working on.
Wish me luck! lol |
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[Sep. 15th, 2008|12:05 am] |
So I've seenMelissa Etheridge KD Lang and Elton the next artist I'd LOVE to see perform is Annie Lennox her voice is just so powerful and soulful it gives me shivers! I can only imagine how she'd sound live. If anyone ever hears about her doing a show pleeease let me know! |
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[Sep. 14th, 2008|11:37 pm] |
Speaking of awesome British guys. I saw Elton John last night! omg what a show!
Nearly 3 hours of hits. my throat was sore from singing and cheering so loud. Highlights included "Rocket Man" "Saturday Nights Alright For Fighting" "Candle In The Wind" "I'm Still Standing" oh hell, every song was gold! his voice was perfect, belting out all the classics and after each tune he'd take a bow and thank everyone -all 17,000- I was out of breath by the last few songs, I'd spent so much time dancing and singing at the top of my voice! he ended the show with "Your Song" which he dedicated to the crowd who all seemed to have their cellphones up in the air as candles waving side to side, I didn't have mine so I just swayed my arms:)
Then he signed autographs for everyone in the front row which I thought was very nice, and he sang abit of "Nikita" for a little girl there. Elton's 61 now but he didn't show any signs of running out of steam, he truly is The Queen! :) |
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[Sep. 14th, 2008|11:07 pm] |
I find it very odd how people find Hugh Laurie sexy. I was just reading a thread about music and someone had a House icon and another poster said "damn he's hot".
It's not that I don't think he's a handsome chap but I've never seen him as a sex symbol. I guess it comes from growing up watching him in stuff like Blackadder, Jeeves & Wooster and A bit of Fry and Laurie. He was the funny guy or the sidekick.
He's bloody hilarious though! |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2008|12:40 am] |
In other news. I got my plane ticket for England! I can't believe I'm actually going back to Blighty!:)
Jan 14th 6pm. I'm gonna take sooo many pictures! and make sure I have plenty of stories to tell when I get back lol. Be so good to see Mum and Dad again:) and to finally meet Joans (Mums) family, my little nephew Charlie. Will definatly have to take a Charlie bit my finger picture!
Seeing all my friends again will be awesome too. And meeting some for the first time! all my web buddies that I'll have a good drink up with:) oh I'm just so excited! 133 days to go! :) |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2008|11:46 pm] |
Now all those who know me, know I'm a massive Christopher Walken fan, I just love the guy! but I came across a site this evening that made me realise my fandom for him is really quite mild:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=133754990
First this site makes me dizzy just having all the flash stuff in the background. and well, it's just so odd. Like he's her boyfriend or something.
It just weirded me out! and I had to share. |
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| one more IPOD questionare. I love these things..their so random! |
[Aug. 21st, 2008|10:13 pm] |
put them on shuffle and then answer these questions with the song titles no matter which song:
How am I feeling today?: Disease - Matchbox Twenty (Well I am abit sick from effexor)
Will I get far in life?: You Have Been Loved - George Michael
How do my friends see me?:Early In The Morning - Eric Clapton (hah I`d scare them off!)
Where will I get Married?: Walking In Memphis -Cher
What is my best friend's theme song?: Bad By Myself - TLC (yea she is hehe)
What is the story of my life?: Nowhere To Go - Melissa Etheridge
What is/was highschool like?:Don`t Dwell -Tracy Chapman
How is today going to be?: Head Over Feet- Alanis Morissette
How can I get ahead in life?: Swift Horse - Shadow Of The Collosus (that would do it!)
What is the best thing about me?: The Best Is Yet To Come - Frank Sinatra
What is in store for this weekend?: Put a little love in your heart -Annie Lennox & Al Green
What song describes my parents?: Taken - Tracy Chapman
My grandparents?: Please Don`t Stop The Music - Rhianna
How is my life going?: Three Days - KD Lang
What song will they play at my funeral?:Last Of The Wilds - NightWish
How does the world see me?: `s Wonderful -Diana Krall
Will I have a happy life?: The Wiggle - Father MC
Do people secretly lust after me?: Blue Moon -Rod Stewart
How can I make myself happy?: The Boy Feels Strange - Melissa Etheridge (aha I understand)
What should I do with my life?:Simple - KD Lang
Will I ever have children?: Aint That Good News - Sam Cooke (well depends on wether I do or not Sam)
What is some good advice for me?: Stayin` Alive - Bee Gees (good advice indeed)
What is my signature dancing song?: Feed The Birds - Mary Poppins (lol rockin!)
What do I think my current theme song is?: Shoop - Salt n Pepa
What does everyone else think my current theme song is?: Cavatina - John Williams
What type of men/women do you like?: Black and White - Sarah Mclachlan (very true!) |
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[Aug. 21st, 2008|10:06 pm] |
Answer the following questions about yourself using ONLY SONG TITLES from your MP3 player on shuffle:
Describe yourself: - a spoonful of sugar - Mary Poppins
How do some people feel about you: - I`m Your Angel - Celine Dion & R Kelly (haha well what can I say)
How do you feel about yourself: - Fire & Ice - Enya
Describe where you want to be: - In Love - Carly Simon (*sigh* `tis true)
Describe what you want to be: - Let`s Talk About Sex - Salt N Pepa (hehehe)
Describe how you live: - Just Like Jesse James - Cher (hmm I`m a wild west cowboy, yes that sounds right)
Describe how you love: - A Hundred Years - Tracy Chapman (for the right woman)
Share a few words of wisdom: - Don`t Stop - Fleetwood Mac |
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[Aug. 15th, 2008|11:53 am] |
Two weeks since I last updated, goodness sake! Well today we're doing a puppet show at the Library. I'm hoping it goes well, of course it might be more amusing if we suck. Time will tell..
I went to the doctor for blood tests and got my results last week. Everything checked out great, my BP, cholestorel (sp), and all the other fun stuff. The doc does think I might have a glucose intollerance though, so I have to have this test where for 2 hours I've got to drink this orange sugary drink and they check me every 20 minutes, apparntly it's a test pregnant women take, I KNOW there's no chance of that!
pah, lunch is over already. Will write again this evening with the puppet review. |
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[Jul. 24th, 2008|12:35 am] |
I need to get laid!
Blunt I know, but what the hell, it's my LJ :) |
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